I feel like i have no one. Noe one who cares about me. I have no friends. I have no obe i can talk to. I feel so alone in this world. I hope i wont stay like this forever and that one day i will have someone or friends and that will make up for me feeling like this. I hope oh so very much. This is what im living for... The hope that oneday i will have someone. I have to wait. But i dont know if im strong enough. Waiting for someone will feel like eternity and im weak

I feel like i have no one. Noe one who cares about me. I have no friends. I have no obe i can talk to. I feel so alone in this world. I hope i wont stay like this forever and that one day i will have someone or friends and that will make up for me feeling like this. I hope oh so very much. This is what im living for... The hope that oneday i will have someone. I have to wait. But i dont know if im strong enough. Waiting for someone will feel like eternity and im weak


This is going to sound contradictory to my previous memo but i feel like i have nothing to live for. I used to enjoy food as lame as it sounds but food used to make me temporarily happy and excited. I dont feel that way anymore however. Im half glad im not as weird but im sad that now nothing will make me happy but people. I need human interaction. I used to stop my depressing thoughts when i know my mum is making me nice food but now i can eat and cry at the same time. I can do everything and cry at the same time. Im typing this and crying. I dont want to be sad anymore. If im sad every day, what will happen to me? How long before this feel gets too much for me to simply cry when im alone and hold in when im out? What happens when even music has no effect on me? I have nothing. I dont know what im looking for. Maybe i should do something. I have to find my purpose.


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