I had the chance to see Daniel without him knowing it was me yesterday at RMIT uni, but I didn't. I hope that he knows that he actually means something to me (whether a lot or a bit, I'm unsure) and that I kept this promise to not see him to prove that I actually really want to savour and keep the relationship and connection we have between us right now. It's not just a thing I do at night - talking to him - to keep be from being bored. I think I consider him as a friend. I don't understand why I don't like him though. I always thought that I would end up liking anyone who's nice to me. It would be cool if I liked him that way, then every morning I wake up, I would feel confident and happy. I mean, I love talking to him, but its just temporary happiness. I dont know why. I think it's cause we talk so normal. If we were a bit more affectionate hahaha, it might be different. I feel strange being affectionate to him though. Its not because he's 21... oh wait maybe it is! But there was oliver and lachy and mac. I have no idea anymore. Lachy never seemed 19-ish to me. he seemed younger than me haha, which is why every time he mentioned driving home from work or sitting in his car or swerving because a car in front of him braked abruptly, it shocked me and 'woke' me up sorta. Anyays, this post was meant to be about daniel, and there i go again talking about lachy. he doesn't even talk to me anymore hahahahah fuck my life

So I was saving up The Best Thing - Relient K to show someone who I would be with in the near (lol jk) future because it's such a cute song and all, but stupid me had to show it to Lachy who I thought was cute and has a similar taste in music to me. Now, every fucking time I listen to it, I'm going to remember him. His fucking existence is now attached to my wonderful song! And he doesn't even talk to me anymore!!!!!! IM SO STUPID, WHY!!!!!!!! AND 'YOLO' DOES NOT APPLY TO THIS FUCKING SITUATION!!!!!