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I want to see fireworks
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In the city
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 and take photos
and go out
and have fun
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I don't want to be indoors
i've been surrounded my walls my entire life
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please no more

“Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but “Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for anyone else. But just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breath in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes.”

—

Unknown

“It’s okay if I’m not
your favorite
chapter you have 
written,
but I hope you
sometimes smile
when you flip
back to the pages
I was still apart of.”

—

Y.Z

Yay! I now have motivation for school. I went through the whole of 2013 thinking that I havent achieved anything and that I'm a worthless dumb fuck but noooo I got 44 study score for further math! hooray. It makes me wonder though, what if I had studied more.. could I have gotten 46. Cause I know for sure that I didnt study very well and maybe even got a bit cocky. i'm just so happy. and my name is finally on the high achiever's list! I thought that this little hope of mine was long gone and that i'd never get a study score above 40 but hehehehe YAYYAYAYAY

I think I saw him yesterday. It was all a coincidence! If I hadn't have suggested to go home and call it day, or if Anna hadn't have suggested to go to the last carriage so we could have seats, or if Anna hadn't have resisted to my insistence on standing up and lead us to the four-seater where he was sitting, I would never have seen him. I actually noticed him as the train was slowing down. His hair was pretty long - which I like and he had on a pink stripy shirt. I think it was the one he took a photo of and sent it to me ages ago, but I'm not sure and can't check since everything on my fucking phone was erased! He even had dress shoes and I noticed a neon green puma bag beneath his feet. He was really attractive (from what I can remember when I saw his face once - and once only - in the beginning). I wanted to look at him to see if he was actually Daniel but I was too nervous, so I just watched him in my peripheral vision, kinda creepy now that I'm writing this. :/ He had white earphones and was on his phone. I was so scared in the beginning that Anna would call out my name and wanted to write on my phone something like "hey don't say Danica, I'll explain everything later" but I wasn't sure if I could trust her and if she'd make a joke out of it and actually start saying my name so I took the chance of not telling her anything. I felt like he noticed me but he could've just been looking at the station arrival message thing since I was sitting in that direction. Who knows. I wonder if he kept his promise and didn't look me up on google (stupid not-private instagram). I thought I saw him look at me in the end when I got up to leave but I'm not sure. I'm probably just imagining it. But I really thing that the guy I saw was him. Maybe one day we'll talk about it.