he says that all he can think about is me. so i said same.

im not sure if he's joking or not but im not.

"It hurts the worst when the person that made you feel so special yesterday, makes you feel so unwanted today."

I saw this on facebook and wow.. I never thought that one day I'd be able to relate to corny facebook quotes. I feel really hurt. I thought we were really connecting and that I had found someone that made me feel special, wanted and that I could tell them absolutely everything. I guess some things you shouldn't share after only two to three days of meeting someone (there was a lull for about 4 months). It really felt like we've been speaking for weeks! Probably because when I talk to him, I don't do anything else. It takes up my whole day. Now he doesn't like me anymore.  

im so stupid. who tells a guy about their weird fetish/es. now he doesnt even talk to talk to me anymore. i cant believe this. he talks to me all during exam week (so i cant concentrate) and stops when i have no homework and exams. my  life is great.

"So you want me to be more

violent

towards you..?"

He said.

I talked about bdsm with chris today hahaha. It so so good and I didnt feel weird and awkward at all. he just makes me feel happy, no matter what we talk about! he sometimes acts a bit odd though, like he thinks im angry at him or something hmmm. anyways i cant exactly remember how the topic came into our conversation.. ohhh we always (well maybe just me) view simple things in a dirty way and he said something about me being a teacher and he'll be a student. i found that funny and said something like "nooo lets not imagine that fantasy no. ew." and then s&m and dominance and submission came into discussion. it seems like the conversation always revolves around me though. haha hes good that way. anyways we worked out that he liked to be the dominant one while I'm submissive. I asked him how the whole bsdm thing worked/ how to begin/ what to do, and he kept saying "i'll do whatever you want to. I wouldnt want to hurt you. Whatever you like. Only if you want to" etc etc. I looked online in some bsdm glossary and found some terms. one that I like is edge-play which can be like a rape fantasy~~~ hahah im so glad no one read this. this is awefully embarrassing. for some reason, i've always wanted that. lol ok he also said that he wants to/to be 'teased' hehahahdsjksjh. I'd rather not explain it on here but yeah found that so funny. he thinks he's so innocent and that i want all these crazy things. hes so cute