i cut

going baad

i feel like no one cares about me.
no one talks to me, not even justin anymore.
not sure what to do.
i dont want to make him mad so ill just be silent.
he doesnt know anything about me or how im feeling.
im so alone..

im "painting [you] as the mean one" because you are the mean one

its like im trying to get what i want again..
but ill try justify myself
today he spoke to me once in the morning and once in the afternoon for about 12 minutes each time. each time he had to leave because he wanted to play with his computer/games.
he wouldnt type to me for about 3 hours and more whilst playing the games. even though each game is like 8 minutes he says. even when hes done with the games he didnt talk to me.
im quite lonely and sad today. im trying not to cry but damn i am lonely.
i keep wanting to tell him that im unhappy and dont like the way hes treating me but i know he'll not want me if i say stuff like that. so im just gonna keep staying quiet. even if im sad, at least i have him.