He doesn't care about me at all. Keeps making me suffer. I am really confused. My feelings are confused. Why do I love him and also feel such anger and hatred and jealousy. I'm constantly worried and paranoid, if not for the present, then for the past or the future. This is simply worry about him. He doesn't care. He just acts and forgets about him. He never wants to talk to me. I really want to die. Even he will not be a strong enough purpose one day. 

I have to stop loving him soon before I'm in too deep. 

One more chance. The break up will be hard - but I have vals.