Tuesday 10 September 2013
I think I've lost daniel.
I tried to speak to him last night. We said a few words and then our conversation just stopped. I'm always too nervous to message him. Thinking that he'd be out or have better and more interesting things to do. of course he would and he's just being polite by telling me to message him anytime. He said last night that he thought that we were done, even though only a few days passed. Maybe thats a hint, that he's sick of my facelessness, is bored of me and doesnt want to speak to me anymore. Even after we stopped talking, he didnt check back, while I pretty much lingered on whatsapp waiting for him to say something else like he always does when I get stuck for about 20 to 30 minutes. I dont think he likes me anymore. Or maybe there's some girl he likes. He told me once that when people get boyfriends or girlfriends, they rarely ever talk to people of opposite sex. Maybe thats why. I'm pretty upset about this. I really enjoyed talking to him. But I'm probably just thinking of the good conversations and not the bad awkward boring ones. You can only have good conversations for a short amount of time. They'll end up fucking shit in the end.
I do miss talking to him though. I guess I'm just going to try to forget about him and see what happens. If he messages me, then I'll know he wants to talk. Just like ***, if he doesnt, then i'll take that as a message that we're done with everything. I'll give it two months, like last time.
I tried to speak to him last night. We said a few words and then our conversation just stopped. I'm always too nervous to message him. Thinking that he'd be out or have better and more interesting things to do. of course he would and he's just being polite by telling me to message him anytime. He said last night that he thought that we were done, even though only a few days passed. Maybe thats a hint, that he's sick of my facelessness, is bored of me and doesnt want to speak to me anymore. Even after we stopped talking, he didnt check back, while I pretty much lingered on whatsapp waiting for him to say something else like he always does when I get stuck for about 20 to 30 minutes. I dont think he likes me anymore. Or maybe there's some girl he likes. He told me once that when people get boyfriends or girlfriends, they rarely ever talk to people of opposite sex. Maybe thats why. I'm pretty upset about this. I really enjoyed talking to him. But I'm probably just thinking of the good conversations and not the bad awkward boring ones. You can only have good conversations for a short amount of time. They'll end up fucking shit in the end.
I do miss talking to him though. I guess I'm just going to try to forget about him and see what happens. If he messages me, then I'll know he wants to talk. Just like ***, if he doesnt, then i'll take that as a message that we're done with everything. I'll give it two months, like last time.
Friday 6 September 2013
I'm hanging with brooke tomorrow. I'm so excited haha. I rarely feel excited these days. and my english sac is over. i dont think im as sad as i was months ago. im happy. i think. or maybe im just okay.
so louise didnt come to school for the whole week. woo ;) she brings bad angry vibes with her. im goign to sound mean but im glad she was sick
so louise didnt come to school for the whole week. woo ;) she brings bad angry vibes with her. im goign to sound mean but im glad she was sick
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