i am quite sad, but i would be sadder without him. so i will just do what he wants. i will try not to message him anymore unless he talks to me. i just dont want us to grow apart if i do that. but im sure he just feels like i am too much. i will try to stop talking to him but when he does talk to me, i will act happy and cheerful. yes, that is what i will do.

im trying, but i am so alone. he puts in less effort than ever. its harder to try now. im trying so hard. it hurts inside