I hope to kill myself soon. I am so lonely and I feel so uncared for 

to just disappear would be the best thing that to happen to me. i just want to disappear and never come back to this life. i want to hike alone up mountains and then jump off.

lately, i've been feeling helpless.

its pretty terrible. i really want to disappear.

I hope that the time I have right now is meant to be used to simply gain strength and courage to kill myself in the future. I hope I have the power to. This world is seriously not for me. I feel lost, anxious and empty every day. I feel anger and alone. I feel like I have nothing. And I almost believe that that is true. I try to maintain friendships but they seem to not want me. I wonder what about me makes me such an undesirable friend or lover. Is it my face? The things I say? My attitude? I feel like I try to be positive with everyone but I almost don't do it anymore. I can seriously give up the facade and be my emotionless self - too tired to say anything or give big emotions, other than being afraid. I feel too tired to talk nowadays. I used to say things I observed or wonder out loud but now I'm just too tired. I just think about them. And I think about why I'm not saying them out loud. Life is strange and life has changed. I really just want it to be complete.

it is very unfortunate for me.