I dont know what to do with Justin. I dont think I am shallow for wanting him to have a better and more healthy body. Am I? I just dont want to feel a little less attracted to him.. I know I could love him so much more. I keep making him sad by talking about this in a very ineffective way. And for some reason I just let myself be mean. Its like I am sick of him not realising what he's doing to himself and also me and I want to treat him like a fucking adult. Maybe I shouldnt be too blunt because I wouldnt want him doing that to me. I'm so mean. I dont deserve Justie