im in a bad melancholy mood today :( even though i spoke to him yesterday. guess i dont like him that way then. i dont know. im so confused. my heart doesnt ache like it usually does. when you like someone in a more-than-friendship way, your heart is meant to ache right? I wonder why when I spoke to Dave and thought he was Oliver, I was extremely happy and confident the next day. I was at my highest, yet after speaking to Daniel, the happiness only lasted for about four hours, even though the call was much much more significant and worth more than a simple chat on Kik. anyway, Im so bored with life, as always and I'm hopeless with socialising ... even basically communicating with people. I cant imagine what I would do in the future. I just hate thinking about it. Who knew that I would constantly worry about this.