i feel the furthest thing from love. from him. i dont understand feel like he cares about me at all. hes made that clear. he doesnt care about my feelings. he doesnt trust me. he thinks hes going to hate me. he thinks hes better than me. he thinks im dumb and thick. hes said im useless multiple times. what am i doing with this person, holy shit. why do i give him the benefit of the doubt that he was stressed and depressed. no one has ever said this shit to me. i dont think ive ever talked to someone that has said and acted like this. such a hateful person. why am i not breaking up with him? what am i doing?