the more i am with him, the more i just want to cut. i not only feel lonely, but i feel like im not MEANT to be lonely but i am? its kind of scary. you feel unwanted, uncared for, unloved... but you know youre not meant to be. he is so selfish and mean. he has this way of making you want to apologise to him even if you did nothing wrong and he was the wrong one. i am really lonely.