People said I seem happy at camp. Is that really how I appear? I don't try to display happiness, and can't anyways but in fact, I purposefully show that I'm sad.. Why is that no one notices? Maybe I do try hard to smile at things? Maybe because they had nothing to say about me so they just assumed I was happy. I wish people could tell that I'm sad.. Its such a lie that I'm happy. It makes me feel entirely lonely.. Like no one knows at all. Its the absolute opposite of sadness. No one understands me
