and here I am.. waiting and thinking about him every second. why is it that when someone doesn't talk to me, I want them so badly? I even pretend to talk to him, inside my mind. it's weird when I realise but I can't stop it. sometimes I wish people would just be honest with me, even though I know it would hurt but I can't keep waiting and hoping. It takes away all my energy and I'm left feeling like this... weak and tired all the time. He occupies my mind, I want to be with him.