i feel so distressed. i can't stop thinking about him every minute and i just want to talk to him. 10 minutes has been literally a struggle today and i have had to stop my lecture a lot. my heart aches so much. i feel like im in agony. it sounds like such an exaggeration but i promise you, what i feel right now is scary and real. i just want him so bad. why isn't he talking to me. :(((((( ughh.