im scared to lose justin because i love him but also im afraid of being completely alone. i will actually have no one for the first time in my life.

I am so lonely. I don't have any friends because I don't want to waste my time on anyone else other than justin. But justin doesn't want to waste his time on me. I am so so lonely. I know I will be like this in the future and I really hope I die soon. I hate this feeling. Its such a waste of money, time and effort keeping myself alive. I would almost give anything to not be in this world anymore.

he thought of me

im scared of losing justin. i dont know what to do. i am failing at life

Yeah.. me and justin are not compatible. We just don't agree and I see him as a little boy. He can't make decisions at all, his brain is slow, his always distracted. I want someone mature. I know people can't be perfect but all this just makes me so angry. He can't do simple tasks. He doesn't realise his wrongdoings. Like, he doesn't even think that coming late to me every.single.fucking. time. is wrong! I just can't take it anymore.